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Anonymous asked: Taking advantage of no roommate! So... How many boys do/have you had over already?
I’ve only been here for 5 days what kind of person do you take me for
well, tomorrow morning is finally the day. for those of you who don’t know, I am moving back to Bar Harbor, Maine for another summer season (5 months). I knew very quickly last year that I wanted to come back. but now that the time is here, it’s so bittersweet for me. I have spent so much time with my family and friends since I’ve been home, and leaving a second time is even harder. I have learned the value of people in my life and it’s hard to say “I’ll see you later” when I’ve been so conditioned to seeing them frequently. but I know that there are good things to come for me during this experience. all winter I talked about how excited I was to go back. I will be meeting so many people, making great friends, living and learning and exploring. I’m 21 now, and it’s time to start feeling like a real adult.
I know that I have nothing to be afraid of. but for some reason, this time I’m really scared. I think I’m scared because I know that my life is going to change again. not that that’s a bad thing, because it’s not, but change sometimes makes me uncomfortable. once I get there I know that my insecurity will go away and I will feel like I’m right back at home (because essentially, I am). and maybe I shouldn’t set my hopes so high, but I’m hoping for this summer to be even better than the last. I am going to get my shit together for real this time. I will join the gym asap (with my fabulous company discount), start cooking healthier things for myself and get my head straight. I want this to be the summer that I change myself for good. I want to figure out a career for myself and maybe possibly get a glimpse of what my future will be like. it will be good. good good good.
so with that, my tumblr followers, I will miss you. I just won’t have time to blog like I do now. if I post it will probably be about the progress in my life, changes, stories about people and my own photographs. so expect my blog to be kind of a mess for a little while. but I hope you all understand, and I love you all.
this is my instagram where I’ll be updating much more frequently. feel free to follow me on there.
